wHeRe iS tHe OpTiMiSm?

Where have i gone?
Dear Bree. Please come back.
Dear Marriage, please say you'll stay.
What happened to happily ever after?
what happened to being happy?
what happened to being independant?
what happened to being fearless?
what happened to not being afraid to speak?
what happened to love?
what happened to safety?
what happened to my life?
what happened?
what seriously happened?
WHY ME!!??
WHY ME??!!
i will tell you one thing though.
i won't give up.
i won't give up!
I WONT GIVE UP!
its not my nature too!
but it is the tempters to make me
want to!
I will stick by through and through.
I won't though, be treated unfairly,
abused, misused, treated like dirt.
I want to be respected. I want to feel like
a queen again. I want love back.
i want true love. was it there?
why did you fall for me?
what did you see? why does it matter
im going to be happy with or without
your consent.
im going to kick the butt of sadness
away and go shopping. yes,
blowing money i don't have sounds
WONDERFUL!
i will get something i've always wanted...
PANTS! yes, some lovely pants.
it feels good to decided this..why didn't i
decide this before?
it still hurts...even after shopping.
i hope that time really does fix things though. i really do.
please God, i know your there, please help me
through this time of my life when i feel alone.
uterly alone.
please have some mercy. send me an
angel to make me laugh. to bring me
flowers and chocolate and love.
to tell me its going to be okay.
i am a daughter of God and
no one,
NO ONE,
will or can make me feel
inferior without my consent..
never ever ever again.