Appreciation

Lately, it has been so hard to appreciate
what I am going through.
It's hard to care for a 13 month old
and be throwing up all the time.
But I must make myself appreciate
this wonderful opportunity that I have
to bear children that so many are denied.
How hard would it be to be infertile?
To those who are, my deepest
heartfelt apologies.
I guess I will suck it up and live on.
May God help me understand why
this has to be so hard. My poor
honey has to deal with so very much
from me. But again, may God help
me understand that I should be grateful.
For trials can make me or break me.
I pray that this one will make me.